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Thursday, December 19, 2019

Can these dry bones live?

There are a lot of things that I have buried down deep in the pits of my heart when it comes to ministry because I have been scared to step forward because I have fell into a deep sin of the flesh, and it has been very hard for me to back away from until a few weeks ago when I made a stand to say that I was not going to dishonor my body by giving it away.

Earier this year I got caught up in this serious relationship with this amazing guy that I fell in love with, and I am still married. I know what a great sin. right? I tired to fix things after I slept with him for life the millionth time, but what I thought was easy to walk away from has becme one of the biggest stronghold in my life, and the only thing that I know to do is to self discipline my flesh in the form of fasting, and praying, and really being real daily byy the minute with God.

I have been crying, and going through some serius changes because my desire to be with this guy is so strong, but my will to serve God has become even stronger. I talked to God last night, today, and I am even going to talk to Hm tonight if I am having thoughts about this guy. There's nothing more dangerous than living a lie, and not being honest with God about how you're feeling especially when you want to fully be obedient to God's will.

Here are some serious suggles that I have been facing lately! 

  • Frustration from not being able to be in his arms 
  • Anger because I desire to be with him so badly
  • Sexual withdraws because I am so use to being with him intimaely 
  • Going through the changes in my mind on what if I never see him again

Now Here are the things that I must accept in my life! 

  • What God has for me I want for my life
  • What doors God closes I must accept the outcome
  • What God removes from my life is for my protection 
  • What God does not give me an answer to is still a sign of grace, and protection over my life

Self discipline is really a learning curve that I am experiencing minute by minute, and sometimes it is literally hard to overcome because this flesh wants to keep rising up. I have to remain consistent in God's word, and in my relationship with God in order for my to kill these lustful desires that are not pure, and that are a hinderance to my spiritual growth in God.  

Tonight's reading is coming from:

Ezekiel 37: 1- 14

Pleas read the entire bible verses, and make sure that you journal your thoughts on key passges of these scripture. 

There is a bible plan on the You Version entitled Finding Your Way Back To God i am about to read day one of this plan, and I invite you to join me. 

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