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Wednesday, April 1, 2020

A Wind Undivided

By On 4:51 PM

What the Bible Says About Wind?
According to Proverbs 11:29
He that troubleth his own house shall inherit the wind: and the fool [shall be] servant to the wise of heart.

what is your heart saying about you tonight? 
Are you facing a hard situation that you can not get right from your own strength? 

Sometimes fasting brings about a change if you are willing to be honest with God, but in order to be honest with God you must first be honest with yourself. There is nothing wrong is normally a state of disblief when one does not want to admit that something in their life is off track, and needs to be corrected. 

Have you ever felt like you were in a hoepless situation where you appeared to be trapped in your own mess? 

Read the sciptures below to gain some spiritual insight, and wisdom. 

The Parable of the Lost Sheep is one of the parables of Jesus. It appears in the Gospels of Matthew (Matthew 18:12–14) and Luke (Luke 15:3–7). It is about a shepherd who leaves his flock of ninety-nine sheep in order to find the one which is lost.

Tonight I want you to allow God to interupt everything that is unclean in your life, and inside of your heart. There is nothing wrong with seeking the truth. Do not allow shame to harden your heart, and do not allow this tough season to define what God has spoken over your life. 

These Covid19 melt downs have to stop, and you have to learn how to replty in the blood of Jesus that has already covered your door post. The only thing you have to do is trust in what He has already said. 

Remember these truth about God's word concerning you in this season! 
Because thou hast made the Lord, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
10 There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
Psalms 91

Friday, December 20, 2019

A prayer for help, and praise for its answer

By On 9:53 AM

Today begins a new day, and a day that I am fully n the process of getting through this phrase of code dependency of being emotionally dependent on someone to feel loved, and to feel like I can not make a move without checking in with this person. I gave this type of authority to a guy that I was previously seeing, and it became really devastating when i felt the pull back of my emotions becoming less addressed in the areas of what he thought, nd what he would say if i did not seek his opinion about this or that. 

Right now I am thinking of the ways that i could have developed a healthier way in my relationship with God in the areas that I gave to this man that I was seeing. what if I placed the same measure of value in my time with God instead of placing it into someone that would possibly let me down time, and time again.  One thing that I have come to know over the course of my life is God will, and has never bee n the author of confusion, and He will never leave me although there has been times where I slammed the door of intimacy in Gods face. 

I just solely am taking back my power of where I am placing my faith in, and of whom I am releasing my emotions to. God is a great source in my life, and I have to stop denying Him of the time He requires from my life to seek Him, and to ultimately choose what, and where, and of whom I will follow in my life . i am choosing to concentrate on how I spend my time with the lord, and furthermore how I am disciplining myself on a daily basis. This process is not by far an easy one, but it is something that i am learning, and that I am teaching myself to stick with above all things in my life because it is very important that I remain faithful to God in every area in my life especially with my body. 

Here are some factors that i am changing in my morning time with God

  1. Instead of reading my bible from the app on my phone i choose to physically grab my bible, and intentionally read, and take notes on paper to write out my thoughts on what I have read.
  2. I desire to get back into the place of intercession prayer so for the next 31 days i am choosing to read a book on prayer entitled 31 days of prayer by Ruth Myers, and Warren Myers.
  3. The time that I place in reflecting on my relationship with God in everything that i do matters to me, and with this even in how I feel about the guy that I am seeing or not seeing at this time i still intentionally talk to God about it instead of bottling my feelings up I release them to the Father. 
  4. Mt mistakes are seriously becoming lessons that are teaching me how to earnestly come to God before i make any other choices that could affect my life in the wrong or right way. 

I am exciting, and nervous at the same time of what God is birthing in my. This self discipline fast is just that discipline. I did not think I would be able to stick with the first day of this fast because of how things has been going in my life, but what I do know is that I choose to push pass how I feel, and I choose to delight in God, and to lean on Him in everything in my life. 

How has your journey been going and how how you been able to see God pulling you closer to Hm just by you getting out of the way, and allowing God to clear your path, and to renew you in Him? 

Let me know below in the comment section. 

Thursday, December 19, 2019

Can these dry bones live?

By On 6:13 PM

There are a lot of things that I have buried down deep in the pits of my heart when it comes to ministry because I have been scared to step forward because I have fell into a deep sin of the flesh, and it has been very hard for me to back away from until a few weeks ago when I made a stand to say that I was not going to dishonor my body by giving it away.

Earier this year I got caught up in this serious relationship with this amazing guy that I fell in love with, and I am still married. I know what a great sin. right? I tired to fix things after I slept with him for life the millionth time, but what I thought was easy to walk away from has becme one of the biggest stronghold in my life, and the only thing that I know to do is to self discipline my flesh in the form of fasting, and praying, and really being real daily byy the minute with God.

I have been crying, and going through some serius changes because my desire to be with this guy is so strong, but my will to serve God has become even stronger. I talked to God last night, today, and I am even going to talk to Hm tonight if I am having thoughts about this guy. There's nothing more dangerous than living a lie, and not being honest with God about how you're feeling especially when you want to fully be obedient to God's will.

Here are some serious suggles that I have been facing lately! 

  • Frustration from not being able to be in his arms 
  • Anger because I desire to be with him so badly
  • Sexual withdraws because I am so use to being with him intimaely 
  • Going through the changes in my mind on what if I never see him again

Now Here are the things that I must accept in my life! 

  • What God has for me I want for my life
  • What doors God closes I must accept the outcome
  • What God removes from my life is for my protection 
  • What God does not give me an answer to is still a sign of grace, and protection over my life

Self discipline is really a learning curve that I am experiencing minute by minute, and sometimes it is literally hard to overcome because this flesh wants to keep rising up. I have to remain consistent in God's word, and in my relationship with God in order for my to kill these lustful desires that are not pure, and that are a hinderance to my spiritual growth in God.  

Tonight's reading is coming from:

Ezekiel 37: 1- 14

Pleas read the entire bible verses, and make sure that you journal your thoughts on key passges of these scripture. 

There is a bible plan on the You Version entitled Finding Your Way Back To God i am about to read day one of this plan, and I invite you to join me. 

Sunday, September 29, 2019

Backing Away From What Constantly Hurts Me

By On 9:24 PM

Last night something happended that really made me look at someone differently than what I held them in a space inside of my heart. I never thought that this would occur again, and that the stage was set for us to move forward in the longevity of our relationship, but to my surprise this was not the case .I was so dumb founded on how a what seemed to be a perfect day and almost perfect evening can turn upside down when we spend only a few hours apart.

I leanred a valuable lesson in what I experienced on last night.  

1. I should never place my trust in no one Psalms 118:8
2. I should always discern rather than go off of an emotion that I feel towards so someone.
3. I should constantly try the spirit by the spirit

I know that there is a lot of things that I need to heal from behind this disaster, and i know that I have to have the strength not of my own; but from God that will get me to the finish line in this healing process. There is nothing like going through a reoccurring breaking with the same person. It's like reliving a nightmare all over again because the last of the last time you thought it was the final ending.

My prayer tonight is that God will keep showing me what I am holding on to that is not good for me, I asked for this, and I pray this in Jesus name. Amen!

Saturday, September 28, 2019

Getting Out Of God's Way

By On 5:50 PM
I think i am in God's way....... And here's why?

There are a lot of things that I have been resistent in allowing God to come into certain areas of my life, because I don't think I need His help in; but the reality is I do, and the more I keep resisting the more I push Him away.

There are certain things that I have hang-ups on, nd there are things, and people in my life that I don't see myself doing without, but I keep saying whatever your will is God let it be done, and I mean it. Sometimes when God wants to remove something from my life I feel like I've done something wrong, and or like I am being punished.

But I need to begin to look at it as if he is trying to protect me from myself, and my bad decisons that I have made in life, or to just simpy protect me from things in people that I can not see. There will be things that will hurt me that I have to learn how to accept, and there will be things where there will be no explanation from God that I just have to roll with.

There are a lot of problematic things which makes me go from one wrong decision to the next, and I want God to search my heart, and grant me access to the root cause of this things. I refuse to be struck in this cycle of friction, and unbalanced mindset. I choose to be free in God in my mind, in my heart, and in my spirit.

God requires the fullness of my heart posture submitted under His authority, and anything that tries to compromise this thing has to get all the way clear out of my life's pathway. I am surely understanding that this posture is not going to be something that comes easy, because anything that comes too easy I tend to question it, but the battle does belong to me. I am learning that I must prasie God from a state of victory knowing that everything that I have sought Him for is already won.

Friday, September 27, 2019

What’s Hindering Me from seeking God in all areas in my life?

By On 2:19 PM

Yesterday I was watching a few sermons on youtube, and what I found out in my worship time was I was not spending enough adequate alone time with God. I would always pray, but for minutes at a time, and I would use every excuse in the book of why I could not commit myself to just buckling down to be in this space with God alone.

After viewing things that were in high priority in my life I reflected on how I am placing these things before God, and how I needed to set the record straight once, and for all in my life so that God will be the first, and only high priority in my life. As i begin to think about the these that I ran to in my life, and to make sure that I was feeding thing people place, and things that I put before God I then had to shake myself loose from them, and make a conscious decision that I would never place people or things in my life before God.

Here are somethings I had to be honest with myself on when it came to how I got here!
1. I found that I was placing my relationship before God.
2. I was putting social media status before God.
3. I was not putting time in where I needed to which made me at times purposely ignore God.
4. I would make any and every excuse not to submit to the things that God placed my hands to do.
5. I misused my time daily when I should have been at the feet of God.

I know that I can not stay in this cycle of not being alone in His present of God for me in this season alone i have faced a lot of dark hours, and still I was so hard headed though God was still calling out my name I ignore him all because of what I thought He was suppose to do in my life by a certain time. I know now that I must not grow weary, and I can not rush God in His timing.

Thursday, September 26, 2019

Am I Looking For My Father In The Men I've Dated?Why am

By On 5:29 AM
This morning as i was in prayer I was consentrating on quieting my mind before god; so that he could speak to me, and as I was allowing the worship msic that was playing in the background to penetrate my soul I felt a shift in my thoughts, and as I was gaining a sense of peace My thought where on.....

God have I been looking for my father in men that I have dated? and immediately the tears started to flow from my eye. I went to go get my book where I keep most of my thought on a day to day basis, and I begin to write down a series of question which made me think about things about myself that i truly need to work on, and heal from in order for me to fully get freed from everything that is hindering me from going bolding into everything that Gods has created me to do for Him in purpose.

Here are the follow questions that I wrote down.

  1. Am I looking for my father in the men that I had relationships with?
  2. Why do I keep going down the same disruptive road? 
  3. What challenges me to go beyond what I see? 
  4. Is there anything that I need to forgive that's hindering me 
  5. from moving beyond where i am in my relationship with God? 
  6. Why am I so afraid to walk with God this time? 
  7. Why is this one sin so focused on me in this season of my life? 
  8. What spirit is trying to defeat my spiritual growth in God? 
  9. How can I effectively exchange this grief, this pain, this anger, 
  10. this frustration, this state of living in comparison around, and beyond my faults? 

So as i go throughout today in applying asnwers to these questions I know that it is not going to come easy to answer them, but I know that it must get done in order for me to move closer to my spiritual goals that I a going to meet in this 4 days fast.

I want to invite you to answer these questions for yourself. This is a time where the body of Christ needs to rise up, and take action agaist anything that is fighting us from gaining ground spiritually .

Please leave a comment below to let me know how yo are doing on day 1 of the healing & restoration fast.